What Should I Do?

I am in deep dilemma. I am at the crossroad.

I have learned that brain activity can be reduced by forcing the Pituitary gland to signal the thyroid to produce more hormone. It can be done by eating less food or skipping meal, and doing less exercise. The body's metabolic rate is severely reduced.In normal condition, the thyroid supplies just right hormone to the brain. An increase in that hormone will cause the brain to under-work. This is what I want. At normal circumstances, my brain work excessively hard, working on something not important and important things. It gives me hard time to concentrate on one thing. I guess that reducing the brain activity to some extent will give me some way to focus on just one important work.

However, I am getting the side effect of this. I had excessive hair loss. My appetite reduced considerably, I am stressed frequently, unexpected mood swing, unordered sleep, unable to focus on work for long period, etc., The good thing is that my brain is not so active. I even find it hard to write something in my own blog.

I think I should go back to my normal life. Thinking is a curse to me. If I am designed that way, so be it.